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I’m in China!!! Just saying if you didn’t know btdubs. I’m really quite suprised here. Like I totally understand everybody and everyone else understands me completely!! It’s like we were born beighbours or something!! Just kidding, I’m terrible. I can’t understand anything!! Well not anything, but most things. My main phrase that I have learned and i think truely perfected due to the countless times mentioning it is “dui bu qi, wo bu ming bia ni jiang se me”. I think I spelled it right?? Well in case I didn’t or if my chinese is already far superior to yours and you have no idea what I’m talking about it says “Sorry, I don’t understand what you’re saying.” I think I use it at least once every second or third sentence in a conversation with one of the locals. Either that or I act smart and pretend to understand. But realy I’m not that bad. Today we had a Sunday service and it was all in Chinese. It was a small church but a nice one with a sweet spirit. I didn’t understand anything at all. Like no joke. Nothing, They sang songs in chinese and the only song I could undersatnd was ‘The Old Rugged Cross’ because I knew the song in English. Haha. And I’m not proud to say that I almost feel asleep during the message. And I was sitting in the front row. I was litterally 3m away from the precher! My head kept swaying from side to side and up to down in sleepiness. And I could litterally not keep m eyes open!! It kept closing everytime I looked up!! Like there’s seriouly something wrong. I even had to hold my eyes open at one point and just stare at the preacher!! But as soon as I let go, the eye lids came crashing down! They were sooooooo heavy like no joke. I’m actually pretty sure someone attached dumbells to my eye lids. At least 50kg!! At least I say! Most likely more. And the light behind was sooooooooo bright!! Everytime I looked up it was like staring at the sun!! Or like how Saul got struck by the light on his horse. BLINDED INSTANTLY!! Impossible to keep my eyes open man. haha. It wasn’t my fault really. I blame Jiahao. He made me talk to him the whole last night till like 1:30-2:00am!!! And I was already having a lack of sleep because I had a mid-night flight ok! So I slept for like 4-5hours 2 nights in a row!! You can’t balme me!! Haha. Ok, I don’t blame Jiahao. It was a good talk and I was talking too. But yeah, back to the sermon. I think 5 more minitues and I would have really fallen off the chair(Er Zi) that’sthe chinese word!! I learn today. Hahahaha. But really, I’m just joking about all the excuses. I don’t really mean them ok? It’s my fault, I should be more ressponsible and get more sleep the night before.

But China’s pretty cool. There’s so much to say about thos place I really don’t think I can cover it all. But one thing I have to say is that if you think the drivers and traffic is crazy in Singapore, wait till you see China!! And I’m told ZhengZhou is actually not that bad compared to the other parts of China. The taxi driver litterally drove on the foot path!! Like we mounted the curb and just starting horning at all th pedestrains and bicycle as if they shouldn’t have even been there!! He did this because there was a traffic jam btdubs. And so that like all the other cars. Untill the police came and chased them off. Haha.

The main thing is the people. The people from what I see and not really that incosiderate or rude as we might think. They actually can be very friendly and awesome once you can to know them. Not saying I know them but I’m slowly meeting a few at a time. They have a real hunger to really want to know more. Some of them really want to just get in more information. Some people have even asked about the bible was to me is really cool. The people here can like just click. It’s amazing. they can come from the opposite ends but yet still act as if they’ve known each other for like ever!! I’m still learning so much about this place and the people here. I do not know how the Lord is truely gonna use me here yet but I’m praying that He will keep my mind focus on the task at hand and not get sidetracked by this big city and what I can do here to entertain myself. I’m here to do God’s work and I pray that I’ll always remember that.

Keep me in your prayers! And I’ll try not to leave such a long gap in between post like 1 year. Who does that kind of thing anyway! Haha Bye =P

Today I got pretty worked up. Well it was yesterday I was just too tired to post yesterday. But it was today as well too. Both days. I was soooooo angry you just would not be able to guess what I was furious about. It is insane! Unbelievable! This breaks every law that ever existed from Newton’s Laws of Motion to the laws of aerodynamics to society laws of robbery or even murder. The thing that robed me of my peaceful, calmness and gentle soul was two things!!! But mainly one thing. It is the thing that the whole society detest and strives to toss away into the great depths of the sea but only realizes we can not live without it. That is truly the worst part of it. That we cannot live without it. This is what people call MATHEMATICS!! Although it does have other common names such as maths or numbers or something like that, to some it is known as the WORST THING EVER. These are the Ragemathics. This group is known for great works the world will be forever in debt because of them. It involves burning down World’s Maths Discovery Centre and terminating Mathsletics. You may also wonder why people like Albert Einstein and Pythagorus aren’t alive too. And it’s not because they would have been too old. Because being so called mathmaticians, the would have come up with a formula to still be alive today. But NO! The Ragemathics took care of them! In other words we ate MATHS!! Full stop no question about it. Well the other thing that made me mad was that my itouch stop working……again……for the 3rd time…….the apps just don’t open…..

Why do I hate maths so much you may ask? For very good reasons. I don’t hate anything for stupid reasons alright. It would take something that would drive a normal person insane and would disable him mentally for life if he was strong enough to survive that horrendous torture in the first place. The reason why I detest mathematics with a passion over flowing with passion of detestilibly is because!!!!……. (drum role)………………. I can’t get it right………… Your probably thinking that I’m nothing but a stupid, useless, idiotic guy if you don’t already think that. But yeah I probably am. But this maths is seriously hard. It’s not like the ordinary grade 10 maths of 1+1=2! No no no no. I am far beyond that. Have you ever done any maths to do with Prosthaphaeresis?? Or even the Fundamental Theorem of Arithmetics? No, i didn’t think you have ever heard of anything like that because the maths we do is extremely hard maths. But honestly, we don’t really do anything to do with whatever I just said before. Amd honesty agin, I never even heard of those terms too. I went to google ‘BIG MATHS WORDS’ to find something to put there. And that’s what came up. You probably think I’m some kind of loser now too.

It’s not really numbers that piss me off that much. I guess its kinda the fact that I expect myself to be able to do it but for some unexplainable reason I can’t. I mean how would you explain me not being able to do maths? Because I can do everything so it just doesn’t make sense for me not being able to do it. But seriously, expectation is something that everyone has. And expectations can vary, some people have high expectations while others might just do enough to get by. And when I don’t meet these expectations on level ground or on higher ground, there’s always a feeling of something being pulled out of me. Especially when it is something I really care about. It drives me nuts. My Crazyness level accelerates through my veins and with every wrong answer it sores even higher and if there’s nothing that can keep it down, I go on a rage. And hence the name ragemathics. And when I’m in rage mode I really hit rage mode. It’s kinda like the hulk. Once started, there’s no stopping it. The only difference is that I’m just sooooo much bigger than the hulk. Soooooo much. Like incredibly massive. Ok, but it usually starts with a shout. Kinda like “WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU!!! CAN’T YOU DO MATHS!! GET A LIFE YOU RETARDED BOOK!! LIKE WHATS ARE YOU TRYING TO DO?!?! SCHREW AROUND WITH MY LIFE!! DO YOU LIKE THAT?!? HUH!!!!” Then I would take the book and like throw it across the room or something. “TAKE THAT YOU ASSHOLE!! WHOS LAUGHING NOW!!” Then after calming down, I have to go pick up my book. Well that’s probably a nice version I think. It can be a bit offensive at times so I decided to edit the usual speech. It usually happens when I’m alone too, because if someone is there, they might think I’m a bit weird and we don’t want that do we? Well yeah, that is me talking to my maths text book. That’s the kind of relationship I have with it. Don’t get the wrong idea though, there are times when we do get along very well. When it’s smart enough to get the right answer (i.e. same answer as me).

But I guess I am one who has high expectations not so much from others but mainly from myself. And there’s nothing wrong with expecting myself to do well. But I guess there’s a point where it gets too crazy and thats when crazyness starts to run in the veins. I think I have these expectations because I have this idea in my head who I should be and how good I should be at something. I have this vision of who I want to be and what I want to achieve. Sometimes I have this idea that I’m not good enough, and I need to get better. So maybe sometimes I do get better. And that is good and all but when does better become enough? Will it ever be enough? Now I’m not saying you should aim for a specific target and once you reach it just stop and say “Yeah, I did it, It’s over, I can stop now.” No, I firmly believe that we should keep trying to achieve the best we can produce. But we have to be realistic and not drive ourselves nuts toward something that we cannot achieve without harming ourselves and others in any way. Who are we to decide who we are and who we want to be? That job belongs to the Creator. After all He did create us and he continues to mould us because we have not been completed yet. So I want to leave the moulding to Him because if I don’t, the pot in moulding might just crumble and all the time moulding might just go to waste…….

Ahhhhh….. The things that school does to us. Maths in particular…… Can’t wait for school to finish….. Just thinking about it makes me happy. Haha. CEO of ragemathics signing off!